The final weeks of my program are here and honestly I have no idea what to do. I have learned many things and yes it feels good to get those things done and be creative but it's currently hard to wrap my head around where I'm going to go from here.
I don't really have a plan per say and radio isn't an industry where timelines are really a thing so finding out dates and times from people has left me with a lot of anxiety. I wish I could say I'm fulfilled after these two years but I don't think I am and sitting here really feels like limbo.
I do hope everything is figured out in these coming months as the summer comes and the weather changes because I'm really trying my best to put out quality work and it feels like no one is looking or that no one really cares. It's not like I'm not trying to put myself out there or trying to be someone I'm not. It just feels like I'm putting my best foot forward like I was taught my whole life but realizing that it doesn't work like that and that it's not always going to work out. "Welcome to the real world" is always stated and is something that is echoed all the time but man that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.
I hope everything work out.
- Declan
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